Did
Do a little more model-making
Throw together thrilling last-minute promotional materials
Watch my boss begin to lose my first potential project in a YEAR
Find out Underling is getting 5 weeks' pay for doing 5 days' work
Feel jealous of people who talk easily
Wonder if I'll ever have anything to say

Didn't
Spread the Underling gossip to anyone who actually knows her
Tell my boss I think he got played
Express disappointment about the project
Fuck anything up
Find a new job
Work on the book
Talk to people
Become someone else