Did
Hurt
Feel scared about seeing Shaman Bodywork Man
Get caught standing in the hall staring nervously at his door
Tell the truth
Hear for the first time in a decade that what I feel makes sense and is real and can be fixed
Cry a little with sheer relief
Start gettin' healed
Laugh at how much it hurt

Didn't
Go to the gym
Get my boss to finish any of the work due tomorrow
Respond to the client I blew off over the weekend
Get New Underling to do what I needed her to do
Leave the office before 9:30
Feel anything but amazed and grateful